I'm pretty much clueless as to where exactly I should start writing on.

Allright, it happened not once; I'm not good when it comes to conveying my feelings verbally. I know everytime I opened up to someone, I either stumble on my words or hold back and end up saying only half of what I trully wanted to. It's fustrating whenever I think about the other things I didn't get to say but never seem to be able to cause I'm just never good at expressing myself to anybody at all. That's one flaw I'm not proud of myself. But no, it's definitely not an excuse of being cowardly to things that matter and should be said upfront and be heard by the person/people that matter. Whatever had happened shouldn't even take place at all, but at that point of time, it was my assumptions that got the better of me, and everything was out. Funnily, I wanted to act all adult and face the reality of it, and I'm glad I did. I wanted to avoid affecting people and/or getting affected, really. We've said our piece; I'll walk on, I'll cherish the todays(as memories are for keeps) and I'll not anticipate the tomorrows(for if it's not what I/you/we thought it'd be, the memories might just perish). And I hope you too. :)

Truth is, there's just but one thing that I want to do and that is for time to stay still long enough for me to appreciate all the times spent, all the efforts given, all the tears shed, all the joys shared and all the moments that was magical. Magical; like having good ol' Starbucks. Ok, free advertisment here.

I'm simply typing out whatever runs through my head at this moment of time and it might just not make sense to me in the next second but this is trully me. I don't like to think of what's going to happen next, but sometimes I still do, just want to enjoy the moment thats here. I just want to make the best of now.

Sidetracking, I've gotten Britney's Circus! This is fucking embarassing, but I was caught red handed boogie-ing in the most awfully sexy way in my room, by the kids, really. I shan't go further, anyways sidetracking to what's already being sidetracked, the trip to HMV opened my eyes to many new albums! The Killers' Day and Age has this disco-mambo feel to it, I swear, it's very different from Sawdust, there's Oasis too; which I can easily borrow(right Sporty?), Linkin Park which I'm not a fan of(Scary maybe it's time you listen to something not Korean, again) and there's Keane, Kaiser Chiefs and Dido(remember Stan, Thank You and my favourite Hunter)! I'm such a procarastinator, been wanting to get Madonna's Hard Candy, but till now I've yet to do so(I'm so slow if I get it only now). I shouldn't be even thinking about it right, Madonna's like a music icon, hello Dayana!

And today, I became a good 'mom' and brought the kids out for a movie, Beverly Hills Chihuahua. Kids love fastfood so we lunched at McDonalds and topped it with hot fudge icecream. I finally got one of Nora Roberts's in the library too, but hey, most of the shelves were only half filled. I fed myself(and the kids too) Fried Mars Bars to end the day out, the sugar rush was just what I need. I never really mentioned about the kids, well, one day I will. This is random but I remember doing IKEA shopping, and I was all sexcited to make babies, start a family and do furniture shopping there. LOL!

Damn, this is one helluva long entry. Goodnight world.