The thing about bangs, sometimes curtains come uninvited.Simply said, can you live life with reasons unknown? I once gave up in knowing what's there to know, I built a wall around my heart and never let it fall apart. Some people put up walls not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to tear it down. I fanned the flames of hostility at you which makes life simpler then. I remember saying, sometimes we've got to let go before ever being able to hold onto something we can call real. And sometimes what we let go is what we trully want.
Occasionally, people say what they wanna do, but they don't end up doing it(I became that person as I threw my words all around). That's the choice they chose which will lead to another route, no matter if it's a wrong move or a right one. I know you tried to come around to repiece back whatever that was broken, but. Bad things only happen because we deserve it or because it is there to teach us a lesson or because it will teach us to become a stronger person. I'm eager and impatient for a reason, I don't wanna pretend.
Perhaps we're both just trying too hard to work on something that was never meant to be. Perhaps I am just too scarred to start with, maybe I am. Perhaps we should have let what we had as it is and not confuse ourselves with what was suppose to be and what we want it to be. Because for once, what we want it to be does not mean it will be. Or perhaps I’m too blind to see that what should matter most is that we're in this together and that at this moment, we have each other, in whatever ways we see each other as, in whatever messed up situation we've placed each other in.
Seriously, I don't know where this is going. All I know is that life's short, but it's beautiful. We've got to realise that we only have one shot at it and we've got to make the best out of it. I don't wanna hold what I wanna do today coz when tomorrow comes, I'll end up pushing it further and further till I eventually don't get the chance to do it at all. And it seems like I'm relying on my blog too much nowadays.
Aside the negativity, today's my final day at Suntec, will be back at Vivo baby! It was an enriching experience taking the role as a leader for a week, ensuring the store operations and staff welfare are taken care of. I've always seen myself as a leader, really, but this time around it wasn't as easy as I thought. I've always sound too nice when giving instructions, and I'm afraid that will make others think I'm an easy person to work with, not that I wanna be difficult. I mean, the fact that I'm a young leader working around very young people, it's a challenge. Because first thing's first, it's all about respect.
