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Remark of the day, "Eh you look slimmer!"
Riiight, can't you spot the stubby cheeks.

It takes more than trust to confide in someone issues you're dealing with; those of which you know you don't have the capability of handling it on your own. And trust is not easily gained, and definitely it goes way beyond time. Knowing that does not necessarily mean that that trusted someone should/can know anything and everything. What am I getting at here? There people whom I trust deeply that doesn't know some other real deal in my life.

So what if I'm too emotional for my own sake? So what if I take those little things that should have not mattered to consideration? So what if I get a little too affected by things that do not mean a thing in the first place? I just can't freaking help it. I've been called mild, silly and just too nice and I always convince myself to take in the benefit of the doubt. I keep telling myself to deal with it, but sometimes I just can't. People have pushed me to do what's right, but there's this invinsible force that's telling me not to; that I just want to let it go. But then again, just when I said I want to let it go, it keeps coming back again.

I dare say that naivety gets the better of me, if not my mind wouldn't be where it is now. I wonder occasionally is karma getting back at me? Call me selfish if you want, but it's vey unfair looking at the way things are going now. How did we get so torn like this, please tell me why.