I'm in a state of confusion now, walking through a giant maze (just like in the Harry Potter movies). It seems like it's happening, but then again it's not? I can't even understand myself right now. The blog kicked everything else to a start and it boils down to this.

Seri's well msg to me was very random and hilarious, it triggered my smilling cells. Much later, I realised half of it was true. Papan love, I love the way you could understand things. Just like that, without even me telling you. It's the train rides. It's the Mutton blood. And my babats.

How it seems when everything seems to go well, suddenly itchy juicy brain of yours starts questionig. And the answers are always wrong or it doesn't make any sense. Clearly because you're afraued to face in reality. I'll quote from Ghostrider, "Never live in fear." (Anws it was a pretty lame movie)

How time will suddenly stand still in the midst of everything that's busy. Walks along the street with so many people seems as if you're walking alone through ghost town. Nothing around you bothers you, even when Mats start to sound like a house lizard or even when there's a hot chick smilliing at you at the corner.

How you try to erase what's left behind of your mind, but still somethings hinders it. Dates and everything else. Some little things that even time cannot erase. (I'm hoping it's period) And when suddenly it's all gone, you heaved a huge sigh. But still, you'd wish it stay.

How the world will come down crumbling on you,, but there are those who'd pick up the crumbles and piece it back together with you. Friends who care, some you might neber even even notice. Love that's all around, that you might never even feel. Go who's always there, listening everytime you say a prayer.

And finally, how some people tend to fall back on things which aren't already there.